Struggling to conceive again
I am struggling with second child infertility and looking for suggestions. I easily conceived at 37 and gave birth shortly after I turned 38. I have been trying to conceive again since my period returned at 39. Now I am almost 42. I have seen several types of doctors and alternative practitioners but I have not been able to find the right match. A big part of my struggle is the distress at being unable to have a second baby naturally. I was so awed by my body's ability to make a baby -- everything was simple and wonderful from conception to birth -- and I was so intent on experiencing it all again. The difficulty I'm having conceiving again has been quite devastating. I went the midwifery route for pregnancy/childbirth, and have been looking for a similar type of care for fertility but coming up empty. I like the midwifery approach of respecting the body and using scientifically-grounded, low-intervention solutions to any problems. I also like the warmth and nurturing of that type of care. Straight-up fertility doctors are too aggressive and clinical and, frankly, depressing for me. The alternative practitioners just aren't my thing. I am not a taker of supplements, tinctures, etc. A prenatal vitamin is the extent of my tablet-taking history. I am rather frightened of medication and injections that alter my hormonal environment in unknown ways and fertility doctors don't do much hand holding. For a variety of logistical and emotional reasons, I've been kind of paralyzed about this whole topic (not to mention stressed and depressed). Plus the pandemic has been hard for me and I've felt unable to add the additional stress of fertility treatment to my life. Meanwhile each cycle keeps coming and going. I need to take action or accept that I have one wonderful, healthy, delightful child and that's enough. So I'm seeking either 1. a recommendation for a great doctor who you think would be a good match for me or 2. some help letting go of my sorrow and accepting having a single child. Thanks in advance.