Religious conflict in our home
Our home is in conflict right now. We have been together through thick and thin for fifteen years, but the current conflict over religion in our home, is dividing us more than the issue ever has.
My husband is very religious and I am not. I converted prior to the birth of our first child, but lost interest a few years ago. He travels to the country where he converted every couple years and since returning from his recent trip, I have been repelled by his fervor and exuberance. He is committed to making this life the best possible for our family and his chosen family whom he traveled to see. These adopted sayings, traditions, and way of life is being superimposed upon me and my instinct is only to fight back. Things don't feel right. I don't feel autonomous in my home. I am lost.
He is extremely well-intentioned and is beloved by nearly everyone who meet him. But as his partner, I am just waiting for this bout of mania to swing back to where things were. I fear that it won't, though. I don't want to lose him. As the religious underdog in the family, though, I have no platform to stand on and defend myself. I can't believe we are in this situation.
I am looking for advice on how to approach this in a loving way, with our children in mind, with saving our relationship as the goal, and maintaining my confidence.