Decade of Insomnia and it keeps getting worse!
I have been struggling with insomnia for almost a decade now. At one point, it was so bad that I had to quit my job, so serious stuff. I am looking to hear stories and strategies from those who have also been there, and perhaps still are. Here are some of the things that I have tried/am doing: zero caffeine or alcohol, excellent sleep hygiene, including no screen time, blue light, quiet meditation, white noise, delta sleep system recording, and regular yoga, along with running. I have tried acupuncture and herbs (still going), hypnosis, massage, craniosacral, psych meds like lunesta, ambien and trazadone, homeopathic remedies like Calms Forte, and probably a bunch of other things that I can't recall at the moment. It used to be that I had no trouble falling asleep, just staying asleep, but now it is both. Sometimes I struggle to fall asleep, only to wake up an hour later, wide awake. I can be up from anywhere from 1 1/2-4 1/2 hours throughout the night, and sometimes I just call it a wrap at 2 AM!
Also, I seem to be getting warmer while I sleep, so sometimes wake up with an uncomfortably hot pillow that needs flipping over. At times, my body pulses strangely, like it is just teeming with too much energy and can't wind down. If the sleep deprivation persists intensely for many days in a row, I begin to feel like there are bugs crawling inside of my body: weird, science fiction type stuff.
I am 40, and have two small children, and am just so so tired. Most of the time, my body feels like I am 70, or what I imagine 70 feels like, though it's hard to imagine feeling worse than I do now. I am constantly sick, as my immune system and adrenals are both exhausted from the lack of sleep. Short of running away from my family and finding a peaceful refuge in the mountains, what else can I do? I feel like I am going crazy!
Thanks for reading.